Bittersweet memories

There was this great part of her life, the part she was with him. But that’s over, it seems like it’s been forever she last touched him, while it’s only been a few months. Sometimes it even feels like she never met him at all. But there still are loads of memories. Every day there is something that reminds her of him, but she knows that holding on to that memories won’t amount to a thing. Sometimes she thinks he forgot her a long time ago and it makes her feel so lonely. He was the first guy she ever really loved. The first guy she opened her heart to. And she never thought she would lose him, but she did. At first it felt like everything disappeared, there was only the memories. He must have forgotten about her. And it took some time for her to realize that she was his first love too. And that means that he still thinks about her, that he has memories too. At that point she was sure that if they would never get back together, it wouldn’t make any sense. Memories were still there, there was still something they had together, even though there was no love anymore.

Add a comment 19/04/2009

Alonetime

She knows what’s going on in your head. She knows exactly what you think, what you want, she knows everything about you. She still does.

You didn’t dare to say goodbye, but you did. You told her you two would see each other soon, you would come along. But you never did. Still she is sure you never meant to leave her, you just needed some time on your own. To think things over, to look for what you really needed and to discover if you still loved her. And it took her a while, but she finally accepted you two broke up.

You left her, but still she was everything on your mind. You didn’t want another girl, you only wanted to be alone, to think about what you really wanted, if this was it. She meant the world to you, she clearly did. But you wanted to find out if the love you felt for her, was the kind of love that could last forever. And to make sure you would really miss her. She knew exactly what you wanted at that time, even though it made her so damn insecure. She didn’t know what to think about you. But life goes on, even after heartbreak. And now she also knows you tried everything to forget about her. Because at first you didn’t miss her, you thought you didn’t love her anymore.

You’ve been everywhere, you slept with every girl you met. But you never accepted that every girl reminds you of her. And you didn’t want to accept that she still is the girl you love the most. That you are nothing without her.

Now you finally accept that she’s the only girl for you, that she’s the one you want to live your life with, you only have to tell her.

Just tell her that you want to be with her day and night. Tell her you lost all the doubts. Make your excuses for the time you were gone. For every time she needed you, she wanted you to be by her side, but you weren’t there. Tell her you used all the time to find out that you and her are still meant to be.

And don’t you forget to tell her you never wanted to leave her, that you never meant to run away. Remind her of the air you needed, just to find out that you two are perfect, that you can’t imagine a life without her.

Add a comment 16/04/2009

The one

And then there’s that boy. He was the one for her, and she was the one for him. But he needed space, he couldn’t handle a relation. She needed more, he wanted less. At least that’s what he thought… So they broke op. The girl felt like torn apart, the boy couldn’t think of anything else but her. But he constantly reminded himself that this was for the best, so he tried to forget and he finally found what he wanted. Freedom, friends, everything and more. But every girl he saw, reminded him of the one. The one he let go of. And every time he was drunk, every girl in the room looked like her. They all looked at him with her big blue eyes. They all seemed to have fun, the same way she always had. But he was stubborn, he still thought this was for the best. And every night, before he went to sleep, he saw her face. He heard her giggle. He felt her touch. Still he thought it was just part of the process, but the process already took months. One day he really saw her, and he got sick. He didn’t know why he ever left her. Still she was beautiful, still she looked happy. Like she never changed at all. Unfortunately she didn’t mention him, he decided that was for the best. But he knew something had to change. He looked at old photos and then looked in the mirror. The guy with the twinkle in his eyes disappeared, he looked unhappy. And finally he knew that’s what he felt for months. At that point he knew, she was all he needed.

Add a comment 11/04/2009