Decisions

22/03/2009 janine1990

I really wonder what it is with boys. They somehow just don’t know how to decide something really important. They don’t seem to know what they’re doing to the girls that really love them.

The girls are usually left, not knowing what to do or to think about what happened. Or only thinking of what they did wrong, even though the boy told that it wasn’t her fault, it was completely up to him. He doesn’t know if he’s ready for the real thing and she doesn’t know how she will ever get over him.

She usually thinks it over until she has no more tears. The boy couldn’t explain what was really going on in his head and the girl finally settles down, knowing she’ll never find an answer, because he probably won’t remember half of what their lives together used to be.

Of course he is still on her mind, every day. But she’s ready to let go, ready to move on, ready to have a life after him. And then, all of a sudden, he’s back.

He shows up unexpected, telling his decision was completely wrong, telling he’s more sorry that anyone in the whole world could ever imagine. That one decision was his biggest regrets, for months already, but he didn’t dare to come back and tell, because he thought she probably forgot about him.

But she didn’t, she never forgot about him and she knows she never will.

He still makes sense, she still crashes when she looks into his eyes. And so does he.

He never forgot about her, because she was the best thing ever happened to him.

But when it comes to making up, they both wonder what’s the use. They were separated for a long time, they don’t share anything anymore. Except their past, they still carry it through their everyday use. They still have that bond, that bond that’s unbreakable. And that bond is most important. They should try it one more time, just because of that bond. Or maybe to finish what they once had. Because both knew it wasn’t supposed to end this way.

But then again, why is it so difficult for boys to decide. They never know what’s best for them. When will they? Will they ever grow up? Will they ever be just like girls, thinking about something before making a decision. Will they ever?